Memoires of a Midwest California girl

My research study tonight of going to a bar alone  in a small Midwest town is more benign than I imagined. I chose this over spending time at a gossipers house.....that s how badly I dislike gossip. What wild I be like if I grew up here in the Midwest? One never knows. Yet with a narcicissistic mother, low self esteem, a father who was bullied out of my life.......I wild be PWT I am guessing. I wldnt be me that s for sure. Or I guess I would as that version wild be me.
Sick and all. Tough life of no love, abuse by my mother.....and I wldnt change a thing. It s my life. The way it is and was supposed to be. No regrets:)